Oh How I Wish This Was True!

Cake Update

I broke it. I don't mean a little crack. It is full on broken! There goes my relaxing baking day :(

Baking!

Today, instead of doing homework or spending hours on the computer, I decided to do some baking! I love baking! I feel like it is a total stress reliever and really relaxing! I like to do it when no one else is home. Just me and my baking. I blast the music and just sing along. It is an old lady type thing to do but I love it! I made oatmeal chocolate chip cookies, with both white and milk chocolate chips, and a chocolate cake!! I am going to put sprinkles on the cake too!

To Georgie

People's Printing

I was just thinking about how amazing different people's printing is. No one has the exact same printing. Sure, some letters maybe similar but it is never the same. I feel like when you look at their writing you get a glimpse into their lives. I wonder why it ends up so differently. In this world people are always coping each other, starting to look like miniature clones of one another. I feel like printing is a way to stay original.

Sometimes I just can't handle you.

I want a boyfriend. How many times a day does this phrase go through my head? Almost everything I do I think to myself "Wow, this would be a lot more fun if I had a boyfriend". To be honest I haven't even been close to having one. I never sent cute, flirty texts to guys, or have someone to send them to me. The only guy who has ever told me they liked me was in grade 8. It was through honesty box. I felt really flattered but he really was not my "type". Even though I do not really have a type. No one has ever asked me out, or even hinted at it. How lame is that! Going through my entire high school and never having kissed a guy. Whats the matter with me! I know I am not beautiful and I will never be the girl that turns heads but I am good on the inside. I am too dang shy! I wish I was outgoing and can easily go up to guys and talk to them. But no! As soon as I remotely like a guy I can't even look at them. I am going to end up alone forever. That is my biggest fear.

"Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says"

5 Random Facts About Me

Here are five random facts about me. I am going to try to do ones that maybe my friends do no even know. I want all my followers (I use that term loosely, considering all my 'followers' are my friends), to do this too! Let me tell you this has taken me forever!!

1. I miss my dog more than anything. I know this may sound silly but I feel like I have lost a best friend. You do not know how many times I go to call her name when I walk in the door. How many times, when I am lying on the couch, I go to pet you on the ground but there is only the fluffy rug in her place. I still can't talk about her. My mum likes to reminisce about her all the time. Sure it is alright at first but I would just like to keep all my feelings to myself. One second I am laughing talking about all the facial expressions Maggie made or how much of a pain she was and then the next I am crying. I hate it.  Millie, I can't even imagine how you feel. You are the strongest person I know <3

2. I am afraid to fail. I am my own biggest critic. Sometimes I am scared to try new things because what if I can't do it. I could make a fool out of myself.

3. I have accepted who I am and will not try to change that. I know that I can sometimes be bossy, controlling, and a little dramatic. I like the attention on me around my friends, but don't we we all. I may not always know the right thing to say but I will always be there to listen. I am very caring and I will always look out for the ones who mean a lot to me. My friends call me motherly, which I am perfectly fine with. I have accepted the fact that I am weird and I love it!We all have our flaws, but if we didn't what would the world be?

4. I hate sharing my emotions. Well except for when I am happy. I want to share that with the world. When I am sad, I keep it to myself. I do not want to talk about. I just keep it all bundled up inside, until I eventually blow. Then I cry at the stupidest thing, like my mum not recording a tv show or the shower running out of hot water. People say this is not good but I think certain things work for certain people and this works for me, for the most part. I hate crying. I hate people seeing me cry. After I cry I look all blotchy and red for hours. Also when I am angry, I will not tell you. But you will probably be able to tell by the look on my face. When I am angry, I never know what words to say so I end up crying, which bring us back to the idea of how I hate crying.

5. I am excited to be a Nurse. During this year I have gone through several career options. Some things fell through so I was left confused and worried. One day I was thinking about what type of field I wanted to go into. I knew I wanted to go into health care and I wanted to work with children and/or help people. The only issue with Nursing was the blood thing. Blood really grosses me out. But you know what, after I decided I wanted to go into Nursing, blood has not grossed me out as much. I feel like maybe it is a psychological thing. Anyways, I am so excited to finally become a nurse. Eventually I want to specialize in pediatrics.

Now my friends, it is your turn!!!