I feel better today!

I think I just needed to get it out and after I wrote it I felt a lot better. I think I should start to journal because there are some things I don't really want to post on the internet and writing it out makes me feel so much better. I keep saying I am going to journal but I never get around to it.

Why do I feel like this?

My emotions are seriously all over the place. Why do I feel sad? I should be happy; school is done, I have a new dog but I feel like I am going to start crying any second. I really miss Maggie. Getting this new dog made me realize how much I miss her. I thought it wouldn't be so hard after 2 years but its not. I go through phases. Right now I am once again at the part where I can't even talk about her without crying.  Don't get me wrong, I love our new dog. He is super cute and friendly but a little piece of me feels like I am replacing her. People always say that she would want us to get a new dog but I sometimes think she wouldn't. She was the most jealous dog ever. Also to see everyone else in my family so happy with this new dog makes me think they are forgetting about her. I also need to stop comparing his to Maggie. They are completely different dogs and each of them have separate places in my heart. I also feel like I am failing at life. My grades are not as good as I want them to be and it is all my fault. I can't even pretend to blame someone because it is all on me. 

I'm Sorry!

“It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re seventeen and planning for someday. And then quietly and without you ever really noticing, someday is today. And that someday is yesterday. And this is your life. We spend so much time wanting, pursuing, wishing - but ambition is good, chasing things with integrity is good, dreaming. If you had a friend you knew you’d never see again, what would you say? If you could do one last thing for someone you love, what would it be? Say it, do it. Don’t wait. Nothing lasts forever. Make a wish, place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good, now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is going to come from, the next memory, the next smile, the next wish come true. But, if you believe that it’s right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possiblity of it, to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing you wished for. The world is full of magic, you just have to believe in it. So make your wish, do you have it? Good. Now believe in it with all your heart.”

Ramble Ramble Ramble

Ever since this whole Twitter business I haven't been in the blogging mood. Plus is doesn't help that I am stressed to the MAX with school. I seriously need these next three weeks to go by fast! I haven't even had anything really exciting to blog about anyways. I have such a boring life. I promise when school is out I will be back in the blogging mood. I could go on and on and complain about so many things, but I'm not. Instead, I am going to go to bed because I am exhausted from work but I probably won't be able to fall asleep anyways.

Change of plans. I do have something to sorta blog about. I miss dance. It actually makes me depressed. I feel like a part of me is missing and seeing all these dance pictures on Facebook makes me even more upset. Its not just dancing that I miss. I miss the people, the feeling of having an escape, a second home. You know what, I think that is what my issue is, I don't have anywhere to escape, to release my stress. Instead I stay at home and stress even more. Things have got to change. I really want to start running, but I suck at it and don't particularly enjoy it but maybe I could force myself to like it. Who knows, now I'm rambling....Bye!