Warning, I am a huge complainer.

Can I just go back to the time when I was young and didn't have a care in the world. It is amazing how fast time flies. It is quite sad how I am not even 20 yet and I already feel like I am going through a mid life crisis. I am in a rut. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I'm totally torn between two things. Should I just continue with school or should I travel? A huge part of me wants to take this fall semester off and go to a different country and work. I feel like I would learn a lot more about myself there than this useless stuff that I am hating. Also I think this would be the best time to do it because after school I will get a job, then get married, then kids and the next thing you know you're 40 with 3 kids, no money, and still haven't left North America. People say that college is the best time of your life, well so far all it has been is a lot of stress and tears. I am supposed to be on summer break and the only thing I can think about is dumb school. School sucks, life sucks, and boys suck. Lets just throw that last one out there. I feel like I had a huge sign on my forehead that says I'm a lesbian or something because I have zero boys in my life. Quite frankly, I think I would be a pretty good catch. Not trying to brag or anything but I see some people who are so boring, that have boyfriends. AHHHH! Also it frustrates me how obsessive I can get over people. I meet someone once and I am already planning our wedding. I need to chill the heak out.

Happiness!

I'm pretty content with my life right now. It is probably from this fantastic weather we are having, but I am feeling great. I've noticed I have come out of my shell a little bit. I am more myself around people from work and I am not as shy as I used to be. Don't get me wrong, I am pretty shy still but I am working on it. Like sometimes I will start the conversation with people I have never talked to in the break room and I am not afraid to be a little weird. As I was discussing with Millie, I have noticed I am becoming more and more boy crazy. I am starting to think it really isn't that bad of a problem since I get joy out of it haha! I just need to tone down how obvious I am. But maybe I am only obvious to myself. I have also realized that I want someone to like me. I don't even have to like them back, I just want some attention is what it boils down to. I mean who doesn't like to be liked. To have someone like you can make a girl feel pretty great. Also I am in love with Landon Austin. I want to marry him and I can't stop listening to his voice! 

Why is my life so boring?

I seriously have zero excitement in my life. When people ask me "what do you do in your spare time?" I am always like people do things in their spare time? I usually just stare at blank walls. Not actually but sometimes I feel like that would be more exciting. Flora and I were talking about how during school we have no personalities. And it is so true! My life consisted of work and school. My mum always says to me why don't you do anything with your friends? Well the thing is I pretty much only have 3 friends and they were busy too. I think that is why I haven't been blogging on here much. I have had nothing worth while to blog. What I really need is a boy to spice up my life. Someone to talk to, give me something to gush over. That would be nice! This summer it is happening! I have waited too long now.