Another year over. And a new one just begun!

This year has been really great! This post is going to be a lot like Georgie's because apparently we share a life. I have experienced so many amazing things that I never thought would happen. I have also learned a lot in this year, especially about myself. I have no regrets for anything that has happened this year! I graduated high school, got my N, got my first job, had my first kiss, went on a trip with my best friends, went to college, found something I am really excited to pursue, the list could go on. I learned that I can do things on my own and that I shouldn't be scared. College taught me to be more independent. I have also realized that I have become more outgoing, more comfortable in my own skin. I think this has to do with having a job and being forced to be outgoing. My New Years Resolutions are focus on school, do not procrastinate (I feel like that needs to be highlighted and underlined 20 times, this is a serious issue that needs to stop now!), don't worry about what other people think, don't worry about stuff I have no control over (I spend so much time worrying about stuff that I can't even control so I need to take life as it comes), exercise (I feel like a fat lump of lazy so I need to do something and Georgie if I have to hear about the yoga thing from my mum one more time I am going to go cray cray! We need to go!), and I'm going to try not to judge people so quickly. If you don't know the person you really have no right to automatically dislike them. I do that way to often and they turn out to be nice people.  Of course there are a few more things that I wish to happen this new year (hello boyfriend?), I'm not going to worry about it, the someone will come when the time is right. Look at me go, starting my resolutions. 2011 was a fantastic year! Let's hope for an even better 2012! Happy New Years!!!!

I went a little picture happy but who cares! It's New Years!! 

Christmas!

This Christmas was so much fun. I was so spoiled but I am very grateful for everything that I got. As Georgie said, my favourite part is definitely spending time with my family. I really love them all so much and couldn't ask for anything better. Apparently my aunt and uncle might come down next year at Christmas. That would be awesome since the last time we spent Christmas together I was just a wee baby. I guess we will see what happens.

Twas the night before Christmas

I can't believe its actually Christmas Eve! I'm really excited but not at the same time because it doesn't feel real! I'm glad I had to work today because I always get so antsy waiting for people. Now everyone has left and it is 15000 degrees in my house! I hope I can sleep tonight since every year I wake up at 4.

I just had the most amazing bath ever!

The bath bomb that Georgie got me for Christmas was absolutely amazing! It was Christmas in a bath! Thanks friend!

Christmas Baking!

Today I decided I was going to bake! I made pumpkin scones and red velvet cupcakes. I also planned on making gingerbread men but I ran out of time so I think I will do that on Friday. And I am pretty pleased with how they turned out. When the red velvet cupcakes came out of the oven, they looked a little questionable but they are actually pretty good! Im excited for tomorrow! I am going downtown for Georgie's birthday and we are going out to eat and maybe check out some Christmas stuff! Yay!!

Why is every little thing making me cry?

I could be happy as a clam then someone will say something and I will burst into tears. Like I can't even stop them. I'm an emotional disaster!

"Heartbeats fast

                                                                 Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall"

"The sun is filling up the room

And I can hear you dreaming

Do you feel the way I do right now?

I wish we would just give up

Cause the best part is falling

Call it anything but love"

Happiness!

Everyone wants one thing in their lives: to be happy. However why is this always so hard to achieve? Happiness cannot be defined as a specific thing. Everyone has their own meaning. People are always looking for something bigger and better instead of living in the now. Once something good happens to them they always look for the next greatest thing. Always looking ahead, looking to the future, when the present is flashing by them. So I say, do what makes you happy now. If something once made you happy you should have no regrets. Live your life for you, no one else. After all it's your life, and you only get one chance.  

Why do I over analyze everything?

And by everything I actually mean every detail of my life. Anything that happens needs to be discussed until the river runs dry. Every aspect of every situation needs to be talked about until I know I am making the right decision. It is becoming a problem. I just need to relax!!

Today after a very long day at work I come home to Christmas lights put up in my room!! They make me soo happy and filled with joy!! Then after dinner, my mum and I cranked the Christmas music and spent a good 2 hours wrapping presents! It totally put me in the Christmas mood! I honestly cannot believe it is only 7 more sleeps! December is just flying past!

December 16th

I don't have much to say for today so I'll leave you with these pictures. I don't know why but these past few days I have felt physically and mentally exhausted. Also I feel like I have been blogging everyday for a lot longer than 16 days. It feels like forever!! 

December 15th

Today was Georgie's birthday! Yay!!!! Happy Birthday Georgie! Anyways, we went to Ihop for breakfast because she had a free thing. I got chocolate chip pancakes, hashbrowns, eggs, and bacon! And this take I was not disappointed, unlike the last time I went with Millie. After that we decided, "Hey let's go visit Millie at work". So we drove to Lougheed Mall and surprised her! Boy was she shocked! I'm really happy we went. It was nice to see her! Then we got Starbucks and instead of Grande's they gave us Venti's! Yay! Also a kid from work told me I could borrow his statistic's text book, as well as his graphing calculator! Which is awesome because that is 2 less things I need to buy.

But then we got home and got some not so great news. But I think he will make it through this. I have a really strong feeling about it. We are all praying for him. It sad that such terrible things can happen to some really awesome people.  Stay Strong!

Georgie,

You always know the right thing to say and how to make me feel better! Thanks my friend, 

I couldn't do it without you! I love you! 

A year ago today,

did you think you would be in the place you are now? I definitely did not! It funny how life can throw you a curveball.

I'm extremely happy right now! No one can bring down! School is finally done, I have awesome friends that love me, and things just seem to be going great!

I really like this picture so I thought I would include it even though it has zero relevance. 

Songs!

It's weird how a song can take you back to a particular moment like it was yesterday. One song can bring back a flood of memories. For example, Party Rock by LMFAO. Every time that song comes on the radio, I can't help but smile. It brings back so many memories about grad. Just dancing and laughing, not a care in the world.

Where are you Christmas? Why can't I find you!

I can't believe Christmas is in 13 days! It came so quickly! Too bad it doesn't feel like it at all. Friends! We need to do some Christmas activities to get into the spirit! We need to go skating and bake! And Christmas crafts!!!! Or we can just watch Christmas movies.

I wish I could read boys minds!

I really can't help but like you. Just when I think I don't like you anymore, I see you again. I really wish I could know what you are thinking since I'm getting mixed signals!

Long Day!

I just woke up from a little nap. It was great! Today has been a very loooooooonnnggg day! And it's not even close to being over. At least its something exciting to look forward too!

Christmas Shopping!

This post will be very similar to Georgie's but I figured I needed to say something also. Georgie and I went to Coquitlam Center to get some Christmas shopping done. This was sure accomplished. All I need to get is something for my friends and I'm good to go! Well I have part of your guys's present but I need something else. Once we figured out a plan it was pretty simple. We went into the body shop and we got these 40% off coupons so of course I had to use it. I got myself a body butter and a lotion for my ma. I also decided when I was in London Drugs that "Hey, I need yet another sparkly nail polish". But I feel in love with it and it was only 3 dollars. I call that a steal!
Tomorrow morning I have to work at 7! I don't think I will make it! I had a bath tonight so I won't need to shower in the morning, because I am so dang smart!

PS. 16 sleeps until Christmas!

Changes

Leaving high school is sorta bitter sweet. 6 months ago I didn't want to leave and I was scared to face these new changes. But now that I think about it I am so happy to be out of there. I'm not going to lie there are some times where I long for the days sitting down our loner hallway, laughing and not caring. Or knowing everyone in you classes and feeling totally comfortable. I miss seeing my friends everyday, that's what I miss the most. I didn't think I would miss them as much as I do, I didn't think it would be this hard. But it is. But then there is college and something about it feels right. I don't really know how to explain it but it feels like this is the place I am supposed be in at this point in life. I feel more independent, and I like it. I used to be scared of change, who am I kidding, I still am. But i'm starting to accept that change is meant to happen and you can't get anywhere with out it.

PS. 17 sleeps until Christmas!!!

What a Relief!

I don't think I have ever been so happy to be finally done a test! The class isn't even over yet but the most stressful part is! As soon as I walked out of there I had to restrain myself from smiling! Thank God!

I have lost my mind!

Today I had a chicken breast for lunch. I really quite enjoyed it! So here I am studying away when my mum calls me into the kitchen. She sounded kinda panicked so I ran in there. She is holding up the box that the chicken was in. I thought I was in trouble for having it. Turns out instead of putting in back in the freezer, I put it in the cupboard and as she was putting the dishes away she found the box of chicken. But since it was sitting out all that time we had to throw it away, which I felt bad about, but it was still pretty funny.

4 hours of studying biology.....

... and still no where near where I need to be. I feel like I know a lot of the main concepts but I need to work on the details, but those are the most important parts. This is the most I have ever studied for a test. I better do good! I'm sure you are all sick of hearing me complain about school but don't worry! It's almost over! Then we will be back to my "exciting" life! And by exciting I mean incredibly boring. Maybe I will have some interesting stories soon.

Can school be over with?

As of one hour ago, I have no more classes. You would think I would be a little more excited. Nope! This stupid Biology exam is actually going to kill me. Slowly and painfully! The test is on Thursday and the amount of studying I have done is about the same as my love life, nothing. Tomorrow I am dedicating all day to Biology. Instead of Wednesday it is now called Bioday. "Mia what day is it today? Bioday." At least once this is over and its the weekend! Something to look forward too!

PS. 19 sleeps until Christmas!

December 5th

So today was a very stressful day. Last night I went to bed at 1:30 and I woke up at 8. I only had 1 and a half pages of my essay done. So this morning I powered through 4 and a half pages. At one point I was like this is not getting done. But at 11:30 I finished! It was such a relief! But then the printer was being stupid and jammed but in the end it was printed. Then after school my mum wanted me to go pick up a jacket for my brother for christmas. I was praying to God that the guy that was in there on Sunday was not there. Let me tell you the story: My mum and I go into Zumiez to look at the jackets. Well we find one that my brother might like so my mum wanted me to take a picture. I didn't want to take a picture because thats awkward and I didn't want to get in trouble. Well my mother decides to ask the rather cute boy working there if I could take a picture. He is like sure, go for it. Then my mum is like oh good because she was freaking out. Then I was embarrassed and awkward and the guy just kinda smiled. Good times!

In response to Georgie: I totally get where you are coming from. I definitely feel the exact same way. I feel like I am wasting my time, hung up on some guy, who doesn't even notice me. I think to myself, if he really wants to talk to me then he would. But then again he is "shy". Who knows! I sure don't! Sometimes I wish I could understand the mind of boys. But maybe that's the mysterious part.

PS. 20 sleeps until Christmas!

So it's official: I'm an idiot!

Here I am at 1:52 pm on Sunday just starting my 6-7 page essay on Domestic Violence for Sociology thats due tomorrow. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to work 2:30 to 11 tonight. So now I have to get ready to go to work. Tonight is going to be a long night and it is going to be a very early morning to get this done. Ohh the life of a procrastinator. Why am I starting to procrastinate the most when it matters the most! I'll keep you updated on this essay of mine!

On the plus side, My mum and I went to the mall this morning because the dress I just bought is now 40% off. So I ended up getting $18 back! Yay!! I also got my present for my grandparents and Georgie's birthday present. Glad I'm accomplishing something important in my life.

PS. 21 sleeps until Christmas!! (I forgot to do this yesterday!)

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!

So today I come home from work with the Christmas lights up and the tree ready to be decorated. After dinner I blasted the music, Christmas of course, and me and my mum decorated the tree. This always puts me in a Christmas mood! I think its almost time to start blasting the Christmas music in the car! YAY! I love Christmas!!

I like morning tea with my friends!

They just make everything better! Even though its only once a week for a couple of hours, it makes me a whole lot happier.

Things to Do This Weekend: 

• Finish Sociology essay, or rather, start and finish Sociology essay.
• Start studying for Biology. So far I'm already behind schedule because I said I would start a week before the test, well that was 2 days ago. 
• Clean up room. 
• Finish English essay.
• Read Chapter 3 for Psych and study for quiz.

Some how I have to manage to fit all that in while working 14 hours. Stressful times! But its almost over!!

PS. 23 sleeps until Christmas!!!

Shoes!

Yay!!! It is finally December, one of my favourite months! I also think I might do a christmas countdown! Anyways, today after class I went to the mall with Georgie. Since we both didn't have our second class we decided to take advantage of being so close to the mall. As we were browsing the stores, I decided that I would really like a pair of black suede closed toe heels. As we all know once I get an idea in my head it the only thing I can think of. We walk into Spring and I see the most beautiful shoes ever! Well not the most but I sure loved them! They were just what I was looking for. So I got them!

I really don't know why I love them so much but I do! I think its the silver embellishment on the back. They are also quite high but since they have a pretty big platform they aren't too bad! I cant wait to find an opportunity to wear them! 

PS. 24 sleeps until Christmas!!!! 

So Neat!

PS. Starting in December I am going to try to do a post everyday! This shall be interesting! Georgie, Millie, and Flora! You guys should do it as well!!

Girl, you need to get out!

Even my Halls have inspirational messages!!

1000 word essay due tomorrow...

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Dreams

Last class my psychology teacher said something along the lines of "dreams can't predict the future" and that it is usually just a coincidence. Well I disagree with him completely. In grade 10 (everything is just about grade 10!), my aunt was diagnosed with cancer. I'm not completely sure of the type of cancer but I knew she had a 25% survival rate. The night I was told about my aunt's condition I had the most vivid dream. We were standing in front of a cabinet thing and out of the blue she says "Mia, don't worry! The cancer is all gone." When I woke up I remember everything so well. But I never told any one about it. I think because it was so crazy that it couldn't be real. Well after chemotherapy and radiation she went in too see if the cancer had shrunk or grown. Well it turns out the cancer was completely gone. It was a miracle! From going from saying she is pretty much going to die to completely gone is quite the difference. But during this entire struggle, deep down I knew that she was going to be okay.

Memories

So I was organizing my room today because I was feeling super motivated, when I came across some pictures from grade 7. They brought back some really good memories but also it made me sad. A lot has changed in 6 years and time has passed so quickly. To think, 6 years from now I will be 24!! Its a scary thought considering grade 7 seems like yesterday. I miss not having to worry about anything and having such a carefree attitude. I then came across a few of the notebooks that Georgie and I used to write notes to each other in. We are actually the biggest losers ever but it brought the biggest smile to my face. I remember writing these notes so vividly. I think i'm just feeling emotional but it brought tears to my eyes, happy tears and sad tears. Sad tears because some not so great memories were brought up but happy tears because awesome memories of our friendship were remembered. During this writing notes period we were in grade 9 and 10 I think. As we all know grade 10 was not the greatest year. She was there for me when all my other "friends" weren't. Even though grade 10 was hard, I wouldn't trade it for the world because if I didn't lose 2 friends, chances are I would not have made 2 more life long friends. I already knew Georgie would be life long.

Recently I changed the pictures in my room. Put some more recent pictures of the people that matter the most to me. Most of the pictures that I had in the frames were from early high school and I needed a change. Some mornings I just like to stare at the wall and remember all the fun times I have had with my family and friends. Pictures really do say a million words and different pictures have so many different meanings.

PS. I feel like my really long blog posts are always all over the place!

I am a possessive freak!

Why am I such a spaz, I don't even like you that way!

Biology... you will be the death of me!

This class is actually really hard. At first it wasn't so bad, pretty much just a review of biology 12. Then came joints, then muscles, now how muscle move. Its just a lot of memorizing and different concepts. I know I can do it, but I just need to work hard. Ahhh! I'm going to go cray cray!! Only 7 more classes left till freedom!

                                                     In another life

I would be your girl

We keep all our promises

Be us against the world

I feel like most of my posts on here have to do with my friends but whatever! This past weekend I saw Millie for the first time in a month!! Flora was supposed to come as well but couldn't make it. But don't worry I will see her soon enough! Words cannot explain how much I missed these girls. From seeing each other everyday to only seeing each other every 30 days is a very long time. Just to say "I missed them" is not enough. You can't really describe the feeling until you actually feel it, sorta like love. Anyways, Millie was telling me that her and Flora went to get their palms read. She told me that the psychic said to both of them that they have a few close friends that they will be friends forever with. They didn't go in at the same time so the woman had no idea that they knew each other. This seriously warmed my heart. Next thing you know, I'm on the verge of bawling my eyes out. I seriously had to contain myself. Millie and Georgie were talking away while I'm about to start crying in the middle of the movie theatre. I guess it was just reassuring to hear that since for a while I was feeling a little distant from these guys. Even though its been so long it really felt like nothing had changed.

PROcrastinator!

Right now I am putting the pro in procrastination. I have two midterms this week, one tonight, and I have barely studied for them. I really just feel zero motivation to do anything!!

I love you guys!!

You guys will always be my favourite, no matter what new friends that I may make! You will always be my number one and my top priority! I don't know what I would do without you girls!! 

 

A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked.

Georgie I hate you!

Dear Georgie,
I hate your stinkin guts
Your sickness has been passed on to me,
and it is driving me nuts.
Now I must drink lots of tea.

Sincerely, Mia

This is my sucky attempt at a poem.

This is the first time in a very long time that I am excited for Halloween. Georgie and I are planning on being Betty and Wilma. I think this is so cute! It would be better if we had a Fred and Barney, to complete the look, but who cares! I could totally see us changing our minds 1400 times when we go out to look for costumes though. Georgie brought up a really good point yesterday. She said "Do you remember how much we hated the idea of partying with all of them. How weird we thought that would be". Well "all of them" are the people we have gone to parties with. I say that like we have been to lots of parties. We have been to three and one was not even a full on party. I guess we judged people too quickly. I get mad when people judge me without knowing me, yet I do the very same thing. The people I used to think we so annoying, are actually pretty nice and funny. In high school everyone thinks they "know" everyone, but actually you only know glimpses of them. I can't believe it took me this long to realize this.

All I want to do is snuggle up in my bed and watch movies and drink tea. But instead I have to go to school until 930 tonight. Awesome!

Pumpkin Spice!

We all know that fall is quickly approaching. To be completely honest, I am sort of excited. Usually I want summer to last as long as possible but I am starting to really love fall. But the autumn i'm talking about it crisp, sunny days, not rainy ones. I love wearing jeans and a cardigan or a big sweater but not have a wear a jacket or be boiling. Also another main reason I love fall is pumpkin spice latte. I feel like this is my all time favourite Starbucks drink. A close second is the gingerbread latte but that is not until Christmas time. It is just so delicious! It is like autumn wrapped up into a drink. Love it!

Do I look like an animal catcher?

So this morning I am sitting on my bed, minding my own business, when I see I black blob out of the corner of my eye. I look closer and I realize it is my brother's frog. At first, I didn't want to move! Then I quickly ran for my garbage can. I cover the frog and continue with my life. Not even two minutes later I see it's stupid little face coming through the hole in my garbage can. I quickly shift the can so the hole is not in it's view. I didn't want to use a tupperware container because I didn't want it to suffocate. So I use a basket that is holding a whole bunch of junk. This still has holes but I thought they were not big enough for him to jump through. Oh but they were! I cover him, thinking peace at last, when not even two seconds later he has slithered through the hole and is now outside it. At this point I am freaking out. Not only do I have a frog in my room but I have to deal with it on my own. It is not even my frog! I try to cover him with the container again to allow me to go find something else. But this time he is near the wall so when I cover him, I squash him. He is all flattened down and I though I killed him! He wouldn't move. Now I am crying. I thought I killed my brother's frog and I am frustrated by the whole situation. My brother is texting me and says " just put him in his cage". Do I look like a frog catcher to you? I somehow manage to get the frog in a container with the lid on and put him back in his cage. This was an ordeal and let me tell you it was not fun at all!! And to top it all off my brother doesn't even say thank you! I didn't even get a response from him after I said I put him in the cage!!!

TAYLOR SWIFT TONIGHT!!!

I couldn't be more excited!! I have been waiting for this forever!! And now it's real!!!!!!

This isn't actually so bad.

As I sit in the library, bored out of my mind, I realize this actually isn't so bad. I don't actually know what I was worried about. There is actually quite a few kids here from my previous school that I had to talk to. Well not in my class but I saw them out of class. I think this is going to be fun! Well lets hope! I'll probably be all worried again tomorrow but after this week is finished I'll be fine.

Tomorrow is my first day of college, and I couldn't be more scared!

Time Is Flying By!

Today is the last day of August! I can't believe it!! This entire summer just flew by. It's hard to believe that I won't be returning to high school in a week. My brother picked up his timetable and it made me a little sad to look at it. At the time, you don't realize how fast high school will pass. I still remember the first day of grade 8 like it was yesterday. But now I start a new chapter in my life. In a week I will be entering College. To be honest, I am scared out of my mind. What if I don't make any new friends, what if I can't handle it, and most importantly what if I lose touch with my friends who mean the world to me? But I am also excited because I know I will make new friends, I will be able to handle it, and I will stay friends with Georgie, Flora, and Millie, because our friendship is different from most people's. During our orientation, the speaker said "This is a blank slate, you can be whoever you want to be". This really got me thinking. In high school everyone thinks they know who you are without getting to know you. This year I am going to show the real me. I am going to try to be more outgoing and show everyone the real Mia, the Mia my friends know.

Mayne Island!

Over the past few days I have been in Mayne Island with my best friends Flora, Millie, and Georgie. Even though it was a very short period of time, I had a lot of fun. Way more than I expected. The sun was shining, we laughed and danced a lot, and everything felt so carefree. It felt like we were in our own movie. The first night we decided to go for a swim, without any clothes on. At first I didn't think we would go through with it but all of a sudden my bathing suit was off and I was running naked into the ocean. It felt so freeing! As we stood in the water laughing, high on life, we all looked up to see the same shooting star. It was a weird coincidence that we all saw the star at the same time. It felt like a movie. It is so beautiful there. The sky is so clear at night and you can see a lot of stars. I wanted to stay there forever. The  next day, being the weird kids that we are, decided to wave at pretty much everyone.  Well after we had our little dance party, we were sitting around discussing our lives, we saw a frisbee fly past our house. Two seconds later two boys walk past, so we decide to wave. Georgie and I wave excitedly while Mille does a weird hip swirl wave. It was quite funny! Next thing we know they are coming up to the door of the cabin. Of course I look like a wet cat. Flora answers the door and we casually come around the corner. They start talking to us, asking our ages, and then ask us if we want to go down to the beach later with them. Also the were extremely good looking. So we go down there and there is a whole bunch of people down there. I wish we could have hung out with them longer though. We also met some other kid, who was really creepy, and kinda ruined the experience for us. But the two other boys make up for the whole thing. The rest of the trip we were talking about them. They both had really cute smiles and they seemed like nice people. One of them said to us "I like coming out here because I can see all the stars. Some people think its gay but I don't care". It was something along the lines of that but as soon as he said that I was like where have you been all my life. I really didn't expect all this to happen in a matter of three days. I actually feel a lot closer to my friends. I feel like we needed this. We have only seen each other a handful of times this summer and we really needed to be reunited. The four of us have hung out all together once. And it was with other people too. I can't wait until next year when we stay for longer!!

Hellooo new neighbours!!

I have new neighbours moving in right beside me! And there is a boy my age there, or he might be a year older! And I am pretty sure he is cute!! This cannot be good for my boy crazy problem!! All I know is girls, you are coming over lots!!!

Harry Potter!!

I just recently started reading the Harry Potter books, yes I know I am ages behind but I have to start somewhere. I love them!! Today I finished reading the first one, and I said to my mum "Why didn't I read these as a child!" They are great!! I feel like I am full blown addicted to them! On the plus side, I don't need to wait for them all to come out because they already have!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

Today is my birthday!! I am officially 18!! It seems so old! It feels like such a big leap from 17. I feel like I am growing up too fast! I am a big girl now!!

Rain :(

Where is the sun! It's supposed to be the middle of July, not October! I want to wear my summer clothes, go to the beach, cross off things on our summer plans! But instead I am stuck inside because of the rain...

How happy I am that I never have to see all these annoying people from high school anymore. The annoying grade 8's, the "I am so cool" grade 9's, the screaming grade 10's, the "I rule the school" grade 11's, and most importantly some of the "I'm so awesome" grade 12's, will never been seen again. But to be honest, it doesn't even feel real. I still feel like I should be going to back to high school again in the fall. It doesn't even feel like summer!! Walking down the stairs at our ceremony and receiving out diploma's feel so surreal. It feels like I am in a dream and I should be waking up soon. But I am not sad anymore, I am excited to move on to bigger and better things in my life.  

Big Ball of Cheese!

I love my friends! And not in the way that people say "Oh, I love my friends" and then the next minute they are talking about them behind their backs. I really honestly love them, like I love my family. People wont understand the feeling until they meet people as great as my best friends. I would do anything for these girls! I will always be there for them, through thick and thin. Some people say it is very likely to stay friends with people from high school after high school. But I know this won't be true for us. I can't imagine my life without you guys. I hardly remember my life before I met you. I feel like we share a special bond. We can just look at each other and know what we are thinking, well most times because most of our thoughts and conversations are pretty random ( Taylor Swift gospel choir?). And the most obvious reason we will stay friends is we want our lives to be like movies, happy ones, and happy movies have happy endings, so we have to stay friends! After all, we are the Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants! :)

I feel like this explains our relationship!

I don't wanna grow up!

    Too many things are changing, I just wanna be young forever! Think of how great it is. No worries, someone always there to take care of you, your life is taken care of. I know my parents will always be there for me but it is scary to think in about a month I will legally be an adult. I want to be a kid. I want to go back to the times where my biggest fear was if I lost my mum or dad in the store, or finding out all the ice cream was gone. I knew this time would eventually come but I didn't think it would come so fast. When we are young all we want to be is older but right about now I would like to be that little girl again. I feel like my life is flashing by past my eyes. I really don't know how I am going to get through this grad ceremony. I am emotionally unstable. We really should not talk about grad this week or else I may (probablly will) start crying right there and then. But to be honest, it feels a lot better than trying to keep it in.

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
No one's ever burned you, nothing's ever left you scarred
And even though you want to, just try to never grow up



Recital

Last night I had quite possibly my last dance recital. Throughout the show I was fine, happy as a clam. But after the finale, when Linda was giving her little spiel, I couldn't contain myself. I tried to keep it together but I just started crying. Not even like a few tears, like full on ugly crying. I would finally calm myself down but then I would see someone and start crying again. It was a non stop waterfall of tears. It was really hard to say goodbye to the teachers, especially Lian. There was so much I wanted to say to her but I couldn't get my words out. I wanted to tell her how awesome of a teacher she is. How she makes dance an enjoyable place to be and I always want to go when she is teaching. She knows how to make us all laugh but also knows when to crack down on us. She really loves us all and I don't think all the people in my class notice that. At the beginning of the year I didn't think I would be this upset. Even yesterday I didn't think I would as upset. But this dance studio feels like my second home. I am there 10 hours a week. I am going to miss the people in my class, even though I do not even like all of them. If I was like this for leaving dance, how am I going to be at the Grad Ceremony! I am going to be a mess! Better bring out the waterproof mascara!

I think I should try this!

Studying

I hate you!!! So tonight I am getting a lot of studying accomplished by sitting on my computer doing nothing.....I don't want to do this!!

Rebel!!

I am a rebellious child!! Today I skipped my very first class. Well I have skipped sewing before but that doesn't count because we went there and at the end of class we went back. I skipped English because I didn't want to read a poem out loud. But we have it read it tomorrow so our plan sorta back fired. We were talking about it and I was seriously thinking about it. Then Sadie came to school and said lets not go to English. Well that put me right over the edge and I was not looking back. Sadie, Georgie, Amy, and I all went to Coquitlam Center. I felt so rebellious!! I just felt high off of life! I told my parents and they just laughed. They were shocked that I would do that and go to Coquitlam Center of all places. It was such an adrenaline rush, I mean you have to do it once in your life!!

Grad!

I cannot believe its all over! Last night went by so fast.  To be honest it was a lot more fun then I thought it would be. We danced, sang, and had a blast. And we didn't care what any one thought of us. We just wanted to have a great time with some awesome people! I love you guys!  It was sooooo much fun! I wish I could go back already. I feel like it made me a little more ready to graduate and leave high school. It will be scary but we all have to more on one day or another.

Rules to Live By

Lately I have been thinking of my own personal rules to live by. These are mine:

1. Everything happens for a reason: When I was in grade 5 I was really upset because Georgie and I were not in the same class. When I told my Gran she told me "Everything happens for a reason". To be honest this is true. To this day Georgie and I are still best friends. I think being separated in grade 5 strengthened our relationship. Sure, we were not as close but we were still best friends. Still, when anything ever bad happens I think "Everything happens for a reason". It may not work for all situations, but for most it does.

2. The answer is always going to be no if you do not ask: Over the past few days I have been thinking about this one. I happen to be scared to ask questions because I do not want to be reject and feel embarrassed. But quite honestly, being scared to ask questions will get you no where in life. Sometimes you just have to face your fears and deal with it. I am trying to overcome this. If you never ask anything you will be stuck in the same spot in your life forever.

3. Karma: This is not really a rule, but I believe in it 100%. Sometimes maybe too much. If I do something good, something good will happen to me. If I do something bad, something bad will happen to me. I go so far to plan out situations in my head. I may be going overboard but I feel like it gives me a reason for why something bad happened, or to make a bad situation feel not so hard anymore. It almost gives me something to blame when things turn out not so exciting.

Guess who is a New Driver??

ME!!!!! That's right! I got my N!!! Honestly I am shocked but hey i'll take it!!

How Cute is This!!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MAMA!!

I know you are never going to see this but I want to thank you for being such a great person. When I grow up if I am half as good as a mother as you are I will be pleased. Thank you for everything you do for me. I know I sometimes may not show my appreciation but I do appreciate it. People tell me that we are totally like alike. Some people may hate hearing that but me, I love it. I am so happy to not only call you my mother but also a best friend.

I am feeling extra sentimental today!

Georgie: Sometimes I feel like we are one brain in two bodies. We are so alike it's crazy! You know it's bad when other people notice or ask when are you two not matching. I honestly could not have gotten through high school with out. You were there for me when none of our other "friends" were. Whenever I am feeling upset you are always there to make me laugh. Your smile is contagious! When you smile, everyone around you smiles too.  You are the first person I want to tell anything to when something sad or happy happens. You would think we would be sick of each other after spending every waking hour together but when I don't see you for a while it feels like a whole piece of me is gone too. I don't think you realise how awesome you actually are! 10 years and counting!!! I love you!!

Millie: Oh Millie, what would I do without you. I love how excited you get for the little things. We do get it. We get that the smallest things are the ones that stick in your memory forever. I feel like you get me. While I am very similar to Georgie, I am very similar to you. I feel like Georgie and I think the same but you and me have the same characteristics. You keep me sane. I love that you make me feel so much better about myself, you always know the right thing to say. Plus you are pretty stinkin hilarious! You can always make me laugh!Also I like that you express your emotions. I feel like it helps me tell you mine too. I love your strength. Because of you, I will never give up. You are the strongest person I know. You keep my world spinning! I love you!!

Flora: You are the kindest, most caring person I know. You would jump off a bridge for someone. If one of your friends needed help, you would be the first person there. I admire that about you. You are also really hilarious! I know sometimes it may seem that we are laughing at you but we are really laughing with you. The things you do are just so funny!! I am really happy we became friends. I don't know what I would do without you! You always know the right thing to say. I love that you are always giving people compliments. It makes me great when I am having a not so good day. You are the sunshine of my life!! I love you!!!

Lillian: I love how honest you are. I know you will always tell me the truth. I am so happy we became friends this year. I know you have gone through a lot in your life. You are so strong. But there is still a lot I need to know about you. But that all comes with time. I want you to know that you are perfect just the way you are. Do not let anyone tell you otherwise. Even though we just became friends this year, I love spending time with you. You make me laugh so hard!! I can't wait until we become closer friends!!

Sadie: Even though we have know each other for a few years, I feel like I do not know you as well as I should. I wish we could hang out more often. You are funny and nice. You are always doing things that crack me up!!

Sophie Kinsella!

Your books amaze me!

When I think back to who my friends used to be I really wonder why I liked them so much. It weird to think that you could once be inseparable from someone then the next minute they feel like a complete stranger. We thought we would be friends forever. To think we had a whole Disneyland road trip planned when we graduate high school. Even though we all thought our friendship would last, deep down in my heart I knew it wouldn't. When I think back to all the times when the "Fab Four" hung out, taking pictures with our numbers on our hands, the endless sleepovers, the board games, the movies, who we imagined each other going out with, it makes me sad. These were the girls I used to pick money up off the ground with, to see how much we could get. Now I feel like strangers. They started to change. But was it really them changing or did I? When I used to their first pick, I was now there last. They put us second to their new friends. From here all they wanted to do was become "popular" and go to parties. I really was not into that and I could of cared less if I was "popular". I just wanted to be me. They took a different path and I didn't follow. To be honest, I am quite proud of myself. Some people would have followed along and suffered being someone who was not their true self. But I am glad this all happened. If it didn't, I would not have the most amazing friends as I do now.

So Cute!!!

Friendship!

I love our friendship. It is completely different from most peoples our age. Unlike these other girls, we actually care about each other. We can have a nice weekend together without partying and alcohol. Instead we go through Millie`s "library" and write down the books we want to borrow. We intently discuss vitamins while drinking tea. I love that we are already planning our futures of going to pre-natal yoga together and how our kids are going to marry each other or be best friends like the sisterhood of the travelling pants. Also that we are going to live on the same street, but it has to be a name street not a number street. Most importantly I love that I can totally be myself around you guys. I can be weird, crazy, and annoying.  I don't have to worry about you guys judging me because we are all the same. We always have these big grand plans to have a movie night but instead we end up talking the whole night, like we have not seen each other in ages, but in reality we saw each other less than 24 hours before. You would think we would get bored of the same conversation, who we hate, who annoys us, who we swoon over, how boy crazy we are, the future, our future children. I love you guys, but you already knew that!!

Oh How I Wish This Was True!

Cake Update

I broke it. I don't mean a little crack. It is full on broken! There goes my relaxing baking day :(

Baking!

Today, instead of doing homework or spending hours on the computer, I decided to do some baking! I love baking! I feel like it is a total stress reliever and really relaxing! I like to do it when no one else is home. Just me and my baking. I blast the music and just sing along. It is an old lady type thing to do but I love it! I made oatmeal chocolate chip cookies, with both white and milk chocolate chips, and a chocolate cake!! I am going to put sprinkles on the cake too!

To Georgie

People's Printing

I was just thinking about how amazing different people's printing is. No one has the exact same printing. Sure, some letters maybe similar but it is never the same. I feel like when you look at their writing you get a glimpse into their lives. I wonder why it ends up so differently. In this world people are always coping each other, starting to look like miniature clones of one another. I feel like printing is a way to stay original.

Sometimes I just can't handle you.

I want a boyfriend. How many times a day does this phrase go through my head? Almost everything I do I think to myself "Wow, this would be a lot more fun if I had a boyfriend". To be honest I haven't even been close to having one. I never sent cute, flirty texts to guys, or have someone to send them to me. The only guy who has ever told me they liked me was in grade 8. It was through honesty box. I felt really flattered but he really was not my "type". Even though I do not really have a type. No one has ever asked me out, or even hinted at it. How lame is that! Going through my entire high school and never having kissed a guy. Whats the matter with me! I know I am not beautiful and I will never be the girl that turns heads but I am good on the inside. I am too dang shy! I wish I was outgoing and can easily go up to guys and talk to them. But no! As soon as I remotely like a guy I can't even look at them. I am going to end up alone forever. That is my biggest fear.